Diary of an young man

Diary of a youth aged 26 in 1986

January 1- Wednesday
Personally, I feel the new year is auspicious. Doubt it will be positive in the International and local front.
January 2- Thurs day
May be Matsyafed will become the shelter for the future. Waiting for the post of Fisheries Officer in Matsyafed
Jan 3 -Friday
Lake shore is covered with mist. Nature stands as a bride . Men are collecting mud from the lake. A small tea shop .A devotional song on Lord Ayyappa on air from the tape recorder . An old boatman sitting on the ferry boat. His toes are not complete.
Jan.4 Saturday
Love towards the mammals may be a hereditary character. Killing and eating the innocent cattle and rabbit is painful though eat mutton occasionally. But chicken ?
Today got some live fishes. Put them in water. Then out of water and again in water to feel that they may get life back. Though a sadist action , I enjoyed.
Jan.5 Sunday
Party District Convention. A huge procession, created festival mood. Never thought it could have a face of death. Comrade Thajudeen died in an auto-tempo coalition . It weakened all party workers of Karunagappally, especially Comrade Sheriff, his elder brother.
Jan.6 Monday
Intensity of death. Sorrow. Painfully blown hearts . Descriptions . Postmortem of the body. Stand at the Medical college as a witness, a mere witness.
Jan .9 Thursday
“ Muttuvilla” means head of a child
“ Muttuvem” means reply
Jan 12 Sunday
Dream of the full belly. A child. An image of the husband. Only dependence for the unending urge to live . My sister, she is waiting .
Jan 13 Monday
Seen the Drama “ Idanazhi” ( Corridor) by TELCO. Based on a story by Tolstoy . Unpleasant presentation, acting. Blush of worn out theme and cultural difference felt. Only relief was the good songs . Beautiful voice .
Jan 14 Tuesday
Rajendran Sir, how cool you are? Though your wife is mad, having uncontrollable character , poor . I appreciate you ,with mind , bows my head .
Jan 15 Wednesday
A few moments with Cheravally, About Mukesh, his drama in life, different stages, about the home, on other characters. Oh! Dark mind, will impurity be removed by tears !
Jan 16 Thursday
High personality, rough nature , mild dialogues , invaluable assembly of words – Vyloppilli
Jan 17 Friday
Nehru Trophy began. Russia beat India 6-0
In city , traffic is became a Gordian knot. In Palayam, the heart of the city, stadium is like a fixed nail, can’t develop. Sugatha kumari, when you said about it, others scorn you .
Jan 18 Saturday
Nehru trophy- China – South Korea - 2-1
“ Thrayi Sanghyam yoga: pasu pathi manam vaishnavamithi
Prabhinnae prasthanae paramidamada: pathyamithicha
Rucheenam vaichithyadriju kutila nanapatha isham
Nrina meko gamyasthwamasi payasa marnava iva “
Means
Like the water from different rivers mix and forms sea water , hae. Parameswara, the ways, may be straight or bend , they choose according to their taste , all people will come to your side for Moksha . ( Siva mahima sthothram)
Jan 19 Sunday
Nehru Trophy – GDR -- Peru -- 1-0
“ ye yadha mam prabadyanthae
Nam sthadhaiva bhajamyaham
Mama varthmanu varthanthae
Manushya: partha : sarvesa:”
Means
Whoever in whichever form may come , I attain them. All are rushing the same path, the path that leads towards me . ( Geetha)
Jan 20 Monday
Nehru trophy—South Korea—India --- 2-0
The broadness of Hinduism
“ Which Vedanthic studies do the new philosophies of physical science echo, its highest spiritual feelings to idol worships that linked to many many folk tales , agnosticism of Buddhists and atheism of Jains have place in Hinduism “ – Swami Vivekanandan ( Chicago speech )

Jan 21 Tuesday
Nehru trophy -- Russia – China – 1-1
Indian philosophy moves in two ways. Theism and Atheism . The six theosophical orders such as Sankhya,vaiseshika, Yoga, Nyaya, Poorvameemamsa and Utharameemamsa have faith in Vedas. Six atheistic philosophies not have faith in Vedas. They are Charvaka, Jaina and Buddhism having Sarvasoonya vadam, Vigyana vadam, Bahyanumeya vadam, Sarvasthithwa vadam .

Dharmam jijnasa mananam pramanam paramam sruthi:
Srythi sthu vedo Vijneyo dharma sasthram thu vai smrithi: ---
Means
Hindus got their religion from scripture. ( Manusmrithi)

Jan 22 Wednesday

Nehru trophy – GDR—India -- 5- 0
Anadi nidhana nithya vaguth srishta swayam bhuva
Aadow vedamayi divya yatha: sarva: pravruthaya :
Means
Vedas don’t have beginning or ending.
Yuganthae antharhithan vedan sethihasan manushya:
Lebhirae thapasa poorva manujatha : swayam bhuva.
Means
Vedas are not books.These are treasures of theist philosophies which were came from the mind of philosophers.
Jan.23 Thurday
Nehru Trophy - Peru- South Korea—2-0
Vak,Apala ,Visavara and Aambhrini are the four women Rishis.

Na roopa masyaeha thadhopa labhythae
Nantho na chabhirna cha samprathishta ( geetha)
Means
Creation and creator are two parallel lines , with out a beginning and no ending, it goes on at a particular distance .
Jan 24 Friday
Nehru Trophy—Russia- germany – 4-1

Jan 25 Saturday
Hocus-pocus – means – trickery

Palm Story
With the fingers closed, bend the hand gently backwards----
If the hand is flexible, then you are an adaptable type, open to new ideas.
If there is very little backward curve, you resist change and prefer the tried and tested.
Texture ( Structure) – Fleshy texture indicates a generous nature , passionate easily giving way to strong feeling like enthusiasm, love etc. and even self indulgent
If the hand is thin and flat , the opposite hold true. You are a bit of cold fish.
If you have small criss cross lines – grill work all over the hand mean you are highly strung(excited) , but they also mean you have a lot of career, social and travel options.
Jan 27 Monday
Life line – begins at the edge of the palm between thumb and forefinger and curves towards the wrist around the mount of venus. This line records disease,accidents and other major events. Clear and long life line chances for a long and healthy life.
If your life line is red and deep it could get you into trouble.
Is the line wide and deep , probably let people push you around.
Islands, breaks and dots are all indications of some emotional or physical trauma.
When the life line is separated from the headline at its base , you may be the type who rushes in where wise men fear to tread(step). But if it is connected to the headline, you are cautious. The longer it connected, the more attached you are to mother apron strings.
Jan 29 Wednesday

You are warm and loving if the lifeline forms a broad arc around the mount of venus. If it move towards the mount of luna, you are always on the look out for something or some one new to amuse you.
A branch leaving the life line and rising towards the forefinger means you are on the way up the ladder at work.
Heart Line --- starts at the side of the hand beneath the little finger. It reveals the strength of your heart and your capacity for love and sex. The ideal heart line is smooth , free of breaks or dots .It ends in small 3 branches to indicate the balance of emotions, common sense and lust . A straight heart line means you indulge in fantasies and romance. A line that curves up mean you are more physical and take the initiative sexually.
Jan -31- Friday
If there is a wide space between heart line and head line, you are broad minded and un conventional. A narrow space indicates a narrow mind and secretive soul. Dots indicate heart diseases.
If head line begins at the same point as the line of life , it reveals brain power and records periods of emotional stress. The ideal head line would be strong and clear , ending in a small fork to show balance between realism and imagination. A long line means you are a bit of an intellectual . The further your head line slops downwards, the more creative you are. But if it drops right down to the edge of your palm, you may nurture special fantasies.
Feb 1 Saturday
The line of Saturn , which is also known as the line of career, destiny, fate or life task, moves upwards just above the wrist towards the little finger. It records the degree of our personnel success and self –fulfillment. A company director with money to burn out but who is frustrated with his career may have a weak and broken line of Saturn, while an office cleaner may have a strong ,clear line.
The line of Apollo is rarely found. It signifies the potential for greatness. Look for a vertical line starting below the ring finger. If you have one, you may achieve honors, success and wealth, especially in the arts.
Feb 3 Monday
Oh!Krishna parunth, Oh!Krishna parunth ( a kind of kite )
Would you come to hear my warbling
The recite of raga , the play of thala
I will give the thamburu to you ( Oh! Krishna ----)
Hearing the tune of the flute
Would you come, dear, would you ,
Would you taste the sweet of laya
Would you embrace a fine sleep ( Oh!krishna---)
Spread the couch and waiting me
On the assembly of ragas
Oh!passionate, unrivalled beauty
Come, come beside and sit with me. (Oh!Krishna --- )

Feb 13 1986
All days, there are pictures of politicians having rotten teeth. Hegdae on idealist label. Karunakaran is enjoying the media reports and hiding behind it. Political stars like film stars . Like the mad guys—running and panting.
Feb 14 1986
There was rain yester day. Atmosphere is cool. Dreams awakened at half sleep. Bewildered mind is under strong security . Sometimes shudders, just a numbness.
Feb 15 1986
Sopana sangeetham-- On devotional base, it expresses fondness, love and romance in Kerala’s originality. It mainly happens in temples during pooja time as kottipadal( vocal and instrument) It is different from Hindustani and Carnatic. Most of the ragas are original Malayalam. Idakka is used with vocal . Morning pooja( Prasanna pooja ) Morning ragas, Udaya raga, Suryodayaprabhatham etc Eg:- Bhoopalam, Balahari
Roopakam—panchari, Thalam- Chempada, Aadi
Ragas—Karunchi, Sruthi Madhyamam, Bhairavi, Ramakriya, Mandari etc
Mid day pooja—Megherabdi, Sarangam, Madhyamavathi, Thodi, Neelambari,Sreeragam etc.
Pantheeradi pooja – Mohanam, Kallyani, Vasantham
After deeparadhana- (Asthamana sandhya) – Kaveri, Kamboji, Thodi
Mid night- Aabheri, Kedaram, Bengalam
Feb 19 Wednesday
Seen a heap in the Kerala University Private registration center that having applications and SSLC books of candidates who were registered for first year Pre Degree. I made me agitated. It is known that the reason behind it is the disinterest of the higher officials.
Feb 20 Thursday
See the luck of the Pomeranian dog. I haven’t yet entered a Maruthi Car or Van. He is traveling in a Maruthi and smiling on me. The owner fondles him. May be his son is not getting such a chance to be in the lap of that father. Sayippintae patti ( The dog of white man ) Sundara ( beautiful) how high is you than an ordinary dog and me.
Feb 23 Sunday
Read K.C.George’s “My life journey”
In a capitalist world we can’t live on Christ’s advice . Arch Bishop New vet Johnson who was popularly known as Red Dean of Canterbury , in his book “ Socialist Dicta” wrote, the real Christianity is present only in Russia. During 2nd world war, a realist said, “ If Jesus now comes to the earth and goes to England, the rulers will ask him to leave the place. If at Germany, they will jail him. In Russia ,they will welcome him.
Russia’s social set up is not based on exploiting a man by another, instead it is of cooperation . It was a social set up that seeks one for all and all for one.
How became a Communist
I understood that the religion is to attain Moksha for the soul only and not contributing for a change in the social sector and would not make anything to curb the injustice. They try to protect a system already present in our society. Then I found out that the remedy is politics.
Once a Christian Philosopher said,” The aim of the people who works on human issues should be a reasonable distribution of the wealth available on Earth. “
“ If our aim is a total , permanent and complete change of a society, small routes will not make any change. Only remedy is a total revolution .
Feb 27 Thursday
“ Imitation is the best form of respect”

Words from “ chanakya sathakam”
“ Can fondle for five years
Can punish foe ten years
When he became sixteen
Consider son as your friend”
Words of Changanpuzha
“ I have been wandering the world
Begging for love
With empty hand
I am standing before you, Oh! Goddess Ambika”
Feb 28 Friday
Fighting strategy of Monkeys
“ Advance, then withdraw, reorganize, again advance”